The problem.

The problem.

Finally! Finally!!! After three and a half MISERABLE months we figured out what was wrong.
We had the HAPPIEST, most smiley baby in the world about four months ago. But it all of the sudden changed.. I don't know if it was his ear infection that changed it, or throwing up all of his medicine, but archer was a totally different child. Not as happy, Always uncomfortable, fussy, and he HATED to eat. When I say hated he would seriously cry himself to sleep before he ate. I felt like the worst mom.. But he needed to eat!! He wasn't chunking up like all the other little babies around. We took him in three or four different times because we didn't know what was going on.. And every time our dr. Just said it was teething.. But there were no teeth at four months... There still are no teeth at 7 1/2 months. Kabe and I were going insane our baby was breaking us!! Something needed to happen! We took him in for a sick appointment and we didn't get our usual dr. So we told the dr what was going on with him and how he didn't want to eat he was also losing weight. this really awesome lady dr. said well, it sounds like acid reflux. Lets put him on a trial dosage if it doesn't seem to help, bring him back and we will do more extensive tests. Well, lo and behold it seems like its working.. I haven't seen archer smile this much in a long long long time. It's awesome to actually have him want to eat more than just a spoonful or two of baby food!! It's nice to actually not fight him to get him to nurse! It's nice to see him happy.
Ps I'm going to go all churchy with this next part.
I can't even imagine what it would be like to watch your son suffer, like Christ did in gethsemane. It was hard not knowing what was wrong. But I think it would be even harder to know what was making your child hurt, what was making them suffer so much that they wanted to die... I feel so blessed to be able to go see doctors. To have modern medicine. To be able to know that Kabe and I weren't alone in the long nights, the endless crying, the feelings of being broken. It is nice to know that someone else has gone through it all, and even worse. I am so thankful for my Heavenly Father. I am also thankful for my savior Jesus Christ. I know that they love me. That they love my son. And they love my husband. I am so thankful for Kabe. He is my rock. He keeps me sane when I feel like there is no hope. I'm especially thankful for Archer. For the amazing little boy he is. For the things he teaches me daily. ( mostly over and over again on how to be patient) for the little tiny bit of insight he has given me to know what our Father in Heaven feels like about his children. I am so thankful that I know I can be with my family forever. I know that if I try my best each day and work harder each day (no I'm not perfect , I will never be in this life) I will be able to return to my Heavenly Father. I also am so grateful for my mom and dad. They made me who I am today. I am so very thankful that they get to be the grandparents of my children. I am so thankful for the opportunity it ha been to be a mom. To be able to learn an grow each day.
This church is true! (The church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day saints) I know it. I live it. I LOVE it.

Life

Life... It comes at you fast!!

Ahh so sorry I haven't posted in what feels like forever.. Well it has been forever! Last week we had a wonderful opportunity to go to disneyland and to hang out there for four days. BEST FOUR DAYS EVER!! I love Disneyland. I seriously could live there. Archer was so good the whole time!! Even in the car!! :) we got him a buzz hoodie!! It's so stinking cute!!! He loved riding all the rides!! And he loved hanging out with grandma miller while mom and dad rode rides together. We went to a couple of shows and saw kabes little sister perform! They did amazing. While we (all of the millers and the coxs) were watching billy hill and the hillbillys, billy stopped the show and looked over at archer and said in a very hick voice "is that a real baby??" And of course archer is just staring at him, not blinking or anything... Everyone laughed and he said archer was cute. Later on in the show kabes mom was taking pictures of archer and billy stopped again and said "look they are even taking pictures of your baby!! " he had no idea that we knew each other! It was so fun! I got to see fantasmic, world of color, a bugs life, and billy hill. We went on almost every ride in both parks and we got to go on the new cars land ride. AMAZING!! :) I loved it!! I couldn't have even imagined it looking like it did!! It seriously looked like I just stepped into the movie! I loved it! I got to see mater! :) made my whole day! It's so crazy what they can do with animatronics now!! All of the cars looked real. Like full sized cars, taken right from the movie!! So cool!! They even have the cozy cone motel!! It's awesome!!! I could live in that place! The lines were crazy long!! Thank goodness for Braydon and the baby pass!! It was so fun to see Braydon care about everyone so much! (And show it.. Cause he has a hard time showing it most if the time) I love him. I'm so glad I get to tease him and call him my little brother. ( even though he is almost 6 inches taller than me!!! ) he is so sweet. Probably one of the sweetest 14 almost 15 year olds I know. Ps. Happy autism awareness month! Anyway... Disneyland was great!! So many memories were made!! :) I will always and forever be a Disney girl!! Ps. Do not ever rent a hotel for 50 buck.. You get what you pay for and nothing more.... Maybe even less... Worst overnight stay.. Never again... Okay. Rant finished! Man is it nice to be back in my own bed.. But the nice Cali weather did NOT follow us home!! :( boo!!! It needs to be spring. No more snow. Just a little rain here and there and then lots of sun!!! Oh by the way I was so good about putting sunscreen on I didn't even get burnt when we were in Disneyland... But... I didn't even think about the car ride home... Yeah... My face got sunburnt... :( boo!!! Anyway... If you ever get the chance to go to Disneyland... DO IT!!! So worth it!! Cars is my favorite ride.. And himelicks chew chew train!! :)

First date. Best date.

First date.

12/18/10 first date. I remember getting into your car(you opened the door for me) and loving the way it felt sitting next to you, listening to you sing. Going out to eat, then you handing me the GPS and saying "okay. You're in charge. Lead us to the concert" little did I know I was holding the stupid thing UPSIDE DOWN!!! We laughed and you made fun of me for the rest of the night, I led you down the wrong road and we were stuck in traffic for ten minutes.. Oops... We FINALLY got to the concert and you were deciding on if you wanted to pay for parking or just park in a gas station parking lot.. You made up your mind after I told you I wouldn't ever let you live it down if your car got towed.. :) we parked in the pay for parking. I couldn't believe how thoughtful you were when you came back in after the intermission with a water bottle for me.. (My heart was melting!!) after the concert we didn't want to sit in the car and wait for the traffic to clear so we walked around... It was one of those super awkward moments when you can tell you both wanna hold hands cause they keep hitting each other.. FINALLY after what felt like ages you grabbed my hand and we walked and talked for a few minutes. We got into the car (opened my door again!!!!) and we were on our way home. On the way home you made fun of me some more and we flirted like no ones business!!! You took me too my doorstep and you hugged me. I opened the door and went inside. As soon as the door closed I slid down the door (seriously like in the movies) and stated "Mom, I'm in love!!!" She rolled her eyes at me but I seriously had a feeling that this could go somewhere... I absolutely loved the fact that you opened every door for me. I was so impressed. And you know what... I still love how you open my door for me. :) I love how when a good song comes on in the car you start to sing it! And I love that we can still tease each other and flirt like there is no tomorrow. Every day I thank my father in heaven because he sent me you. A worthy priesthood holder, the cutest daddy ever, a wonderful provider, a very caring companion. I am so thankful for you. I love you.

Archer Ray Miller

Archer is now 6 months old!! Ahhh!!! I'm FREAKING out!!  Where did time go?? Why did my little baby have to get so big so quick?? What was it like when you weren't mobile?? I ask myself these questions almost every day! Archer is pretty much crawling. No 6 month old is supposed to crawl!!!! The other day I was doing dishes and I heard something fall and I go into the living room (like three steps away) and he had pulled a mirror onto his head, and got a little bruise from it... now the bumps and bruises begin. He also doesn't just crawl to things. He has now figured out how to roll from his tummy to his back. He can almost sit up... but he falls after like five seconds.   He LOVES big people food. Not the big people food pureed and fed to him with a little person spoon. No. The big people food mom and dad eat. If he could he would eat the same meals mom and dad do. But we don't let him.. I will every once in a while let him gnaw on my apple core or something like that. But he has totally refused little people food for now...  Last week we thought he was sick so we took him in.. they said that he was just teething and that the bottom left front tooth was coming in. (I know there has to be a smarter name for that tooth.. I just don't know it.) So needless to say I haven't been getting very much sleep, or anything done around the house...

6 months ago on this day at 7:53am Archer Ray Miller was born. One of the greatest days of my life. :] He has blessed my life more than anyone could ever know and more than I ever could have thought.

Archer Ray 

6 months 

14.3 lbs 

25 3/8 inches

Mission #5 New Things

Mission #5 New things.

1. Archer is a little rolling machine!
2. Archer is a copy cat.
3. Archer is starting to scoot.
4. We think (notice how I said "we think") Archer is getting a tooth! (I don't really know if he is... its my first baby! I just know he is very very very fussy!! And not sick.)
5. Archer has started solid (well not really solid, more like pureed solids) food.

1. Archer first decided to roll over when we were in Vegas. He can roll from his back to his tummy really really well. He loves to be on his tummy cause he can see so much more. He loves to be on the ground for about five minutes.. any longer than that and he will start to cry.

2. Archer has been a little thinking. He will watch you do something and he will mimic it. He will move his hand when you wave at him. He will TRY and make the same sounds as you when you make sounds at him. He will pull faces that I guess I make to him all the time (Kabe told me so.) Archer is too smart for his (and our) own good. He can watch and mimic very very well. I'm in a lot of trouble with this one....

3. Archer is starting to get up on all fours. Sometimes he will only push with his legs and his little booty will go so high in the air that I'm afraid he is going to do a front flip!! He doesn't have the whole leg arm leg arm movement down yet. He will get up on all fours and just dive forward and sprawl his arms and legs out. :] He is so much fun to have in our home.

4. We THINK Archer is getting a tooth.. We have no idea what is wrong with him. All we know is that we don't get enough sleep, or time where he is not screaming... I just hope it is a tooth and it will show itself here soon.. and then he can go back to being the really happy loving baby that he was. :]

5. Archer loves carrots.. Well not like real carrots that are sticks of orange goodness. But of the mashed orange stuff that looks the same going in as it does coming out! (Ewww... sorry!) But he loves carrots. He HATES and refuses to eat the rice cereal. He is a little messy though when he eats... he is still learning how to get the food to stay in his mouth. He doesn't do a good job at closing his mouth all the way when he is eating. I'm sure he will get better, but for now he is just a messy little boy. :]

Archer is getting so so big! I love him, but I also miss the little tiny baby that he once was. I know everyone told me to enjoy them while they are young, and I did, but I didn't know that they would grow so fast!!! :[ boo.

Valentines day was amazing! :]

Archer and I matched. Red pants and a white shirt. :] Kabe got me some Chocolate covered Strawberries. :] Some manicure things and a red rose. :] <3 I don't know if I could be more spoiled.  I'm glad Kabe had the whole day off so we could spend time together as a family!! :] I really couldn't have asked for a better day. I'm so glad that I have these two men in my life. :] They bless me every day more than they even know. 

dinner was amazing too!!!! :] homemade!! booya!! 

Mission #4

Mission #4
Last week Kabe, Archer and I drove down to Las Vegas. Never again will we drive with an infant. It was very miserable. The stretch of road from St. George to Las Vegas he screamed the whole time.  Babies cry. Sometimes even scream. That's all I kept thinking to myself. I wasn't driving at the time Archer started to cry. Kabe was, and I can deal with a screaming child, but I don't know how well I would handle it if I had to drive. Lets just say when we got there Kabe wasn't too fond of Archer.

We got there late Monday night. Kabe, Scott, and I played Settlers of Catan and I won!! BOOYA!! Kabe went to work Tuesday through Thursday around 9am to around 9pm. It was a very weird three days. Then when he got home he had to do more homework for the school that he missed. But Janice (Kabes aunt) kept me busy. We went to lunch and made some really cute banners, she even taught me how to make big pom pom balls out of tissue paper. I even went in for a teeth cleaning!! :] no cavities! On Saturday Kabe and I played soccer with some cousins! It was a blast! I really couldn't have asked for better weather! Some of the cousins came and played with me all day long! They are that awesome that they just dropped everything to come and help me so I wasn't lonely!! I married into one AWESOME family!! We didn't want to leave! it was 70 degrees when we left. :[ we came home to snow on the ground.... and it snowed again on Friday. Boo. 

Seriously, this was one of the best weeks of my life! I had so much fun hanging out with everyone. It stinks that they live so far away! 

Life keeps moving! Its crazy! 

My little baby isn't so little anymore! 

My Liv BUGS is going on a mission!! 

She will do amazing things. I love this girl. She is my hero. I know that we will always be best friends! She has an amazing testimony and I know she is going to bless so many lives. She has already blessed mine. I love her and she is an amazing example and has so much in store for her! She has lived a life of many stories, and trials but she can overcome them with a smile! "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven." Matthew 5:16. Liv does just that. I will miss her for those 18 months, but I know with all of my heart she will be a wonderful missionary! 

My Yacamo is getting married!! 

Through thick and thin this girl has been there! So excited to see her getting married and getting all she has ever wanted! I'm so proud of her! I love this one to death! I'm so glad that she found someone who knows how to treat a girl right!! She deserves it! A brunette and a blonde with an inseparable bond. 
Vanilla && Chocolate. 

Sometimes I feel like my life is spinning out of control, and I cant stop it from moving so fast. I wonder if it will always feel like this? I guess all you can do is enjoy the moments. Don't look to the past, or the future. Focus on the now.

 

That's why we call it the PRESENT! 


Over && Out! :]

Mission #3 Teaching the Children

Mission #3
Teaching the Children.

In February I have the opportunity to give the lesson in relief society and the lesson is on Elder L. Tom Perrys' conference talk, Becoming Goodly Parents. As I am preparing this lesson, and reading this talk over and over, it keeps coming to me again and again that I am responsible for teaching the children.(my husband is too, but I will be home with them most of the time.) I have to teach them what is right and wrong. To be accepting, but not to follow those examples. That there is no grey area. Just black and white. Good and evil. "No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon" Matthew 6:24 There is no more sitting on the fence. Living in this twisted world we live in is hard enough.. I now have to raise a honorable and worthy young man. But I guess that is why we aren't supposed to do it alone.  I have the most amazing man at my side to help me teach our children. By no means are we perfect. But every day is a new day and you can always be better today. Teaching the gospel starts in everyday things like reading scriptures, family and personal prayer, FHE, going to church (with the right attitude) and being an example. The things you do and say will be picked up by your children. For example: When I taught primary, we were playing a matching game with animals. One of the sisters in the primary was trying to match a cat. She then picked up a fox and under her breath said "oh that darn fox!!" It was then our little primary boy's turn and he picked up the exact card and said "oh that darn fox!!" we all looked at each other in shock because he picked it up so quickly. Or if you as a parent complain about going to church, and how long it is and how you could be doing other things they will pick up on your attitude. They might not look like they are paying attention but they are. They listen to almost every thing we say and watch almost every thing we do. I know that you learn a lot from watching someone, lets have our kids learn the best things from watching us. This world is scary, screwed up and cruel, but I know that if we are in the world not of the world we will be alright. In the world: we live here. Of the world: we think of worldly things, do worldly things, and say worldly things. We want to live in the world, not be of the world. Yes everyone messes up, and I'm not perfect by far. I'm also not expecting my children to be perfect, I just want them to be better than me. I want to teach them things that I never took the time to learn. I want them to excel in not only the gospel but in their righteous desires too.  I want to be able to teach them so they can be able to go out and teach others.
  "And if it so be that you should labor all your days in crying repentance unto this people, and bring, save it be one soul unto me, how great shall be your joy with him in the kingdom of my Father!
 16 And now, if your joy will be great with one soul that you have brought unto me into the kingdom of my Father, how great will be your joy if you should bring many souls unto me!" D&C 18:15-16
I know that teaching them wont be easy. They wont be perfect. But I know that I wont do it alone. My Father in Heaven will be there with me every second of the way.“For with God nothing shall be impossible” (Luke 1:37). Nothing shall be impossible. I love that. I love this gospel and I love my family.

Miller Family Update!!
Kabe got an internship for over the summer. Its really close to what he really wants to do. We will stay where we are and his work is only like five minutes away. A couple of weeks ago he got an email saying that his work is going to be having a meeting in Las Vegas with some of their really big clients. They asked if Kabe would go!! He has been wanting to go back down since the last time we went!! (2011) They will pay for our gas to get there and for his food! We will be staying with Kabes uncle and aunt! I'm so excited! Kabe will be gone a lot with meetings, but I will be okay I have Janice to entertain me! I'm so ready to get out of the cold weather and into some sun!!!! Its supposed to get up to 64 degrees thursday and friday!! HELLO SHORTS!!! just kidding.... but seriously. I'm so excited!!
Archer has been so close to rolling over! From his back to his tummy!! We tried rice cereal... it didn't go so well.. he doesn't know how to use a spoon... haha but he will get better. He has been super fussy... but I think he is just a brat... I love him. He is so much fun and brings so much happiness into our lives! :] he also LOVES to spit!

he toots in this one...

sorry its upside down